Feeling Ignored

“But she knows she has a curse on her,
a curse she cannot win.
For if someone gets too close to her,
the pins stick further in.”
― Tim Burton

It seems the harder I try to find friends, the worse it gets. My ex boss (we'll call her Kathy), is having a rough couple months. This month is the anniversary of her grandson passing away from a car accident. Next month would have been his 25th birthday. I try to be there for her. I told her if she needed anything, I was there. She hasn't answered me.

I tried texting my friend (we'll call her Mary) today. Earlier she said she was sleeping. This was at 4pm. At around 9:30pm I asked if she was up. Then around 5am I asked if she was alright. She's usually up at 3am so I thought I would get some kind of response. I was worried because she saw the psychiatrist today about getting different meds because the one was making her have awful muscle cramps. I think I'm coming off really needy. I see her almost every other day. Sometimes I'll see her a couple days in a row even if it's for just a little bit. I wanted to see her today to see if she's doing alright but she's not answering me. Maybe I upset her. 

Update: She just text me, saying she just woke up. It's not like her to sleep that long which worries me. She's got insomnia even worse than me. I want to see her but I doubt she'll be up to it. I just really need someone to be around right now and hubby is asleep. He'll be back up at 2pm, get ready for work and leave. I won't really see him. I know I won't be able to go to sleep until after he leaves. 

I don't really know what to do. Nothing is distracting enough for me right now. This sucks.