Slope

On the slope downward. During the week I have school work to keep me busy. Then there is the house to clean, bills to pay, class to go to. Now it's Friday and I have a whole weekend alone ahead of me. I feel so low, I can't bring myself to clean (besides there's not much I can do until the hubby get's his mini fridge and microwave in his truck). I'm caught up with school work. I can't focus long enough to read or play a video game. All I feel like doing is crying for no reason.

Yesterday I went to lunch with my ex boss. It was nice being around another human. When I left, after saying hi to some other people, I drove around aimlessly for a while. I kept stopping on the side of the road to take pictures of random things. Luckily no one stopped to try and help me (I had my hazard lights on). I want to go through the pictures but my mind just won't focus.

Now all I want to do is listen to sad music and cry. I know it's not good to listen to sad music when you're sad, but it's all I can seem to do. I don't have anyone else to talk to or hang out with. I don't have the money to go out to the bar. I'm stuck in the house. I can't clean outside because there's a swarm of lady bugs, or whatever they're called, around my house. At least it's warm out..

So, since I don't know what to do, I guess I'll just go lay on the couch and listen to music. Fun day.
:-(