I'm ok

For now. My father in a law came over yesterday and helped put up some of the trim. He is supposed to come over today to help finish it but I'm not sure if he will. I "fixed" the patch of ceiling in the kitchen that had been torn when we had a lot of rain a couple months back. By fixed, I mean I glued the pieces back. You can still see that it's torn and broken but at least it isn't hanging down any longer.

I'm finally letting the dog sleep in the bed with me again. I had started making her sleep in her cage in the living room because I was having nightmares and I would wake up swinging. I didn't want to hurt her so I had her sleep somewhere else. After all the weird sounds and strange cologne smells, I decided to let her back into the room at night. I still leave the lava lamp on until I get tired enough to sleep, and I still turn on some relaxing music to help. I'm trying to wean myself from taking xanax to get to sleep. I need it to survive my classes more than to sleep. The zzquil stuff works pretty good when taken in excess.

I'm really bored right now (what's new). I was able to write 12 pages of my book last night. I don't really have the energy to type it all up yet though. I'm at 83 typed pages for my manuscript. I'm not nearly where I want to be with it but it's getting there. I figured it would be best to start with too much detail and be able to cut some of it out, than to not have enough detail and then have to force detail. I've been trying to get people to help me edit or give feedback. One girl loves it and says it's better than twilight. (She's only 15) My husband hasn't gotten past the first page. My ex boss said she would look through it but she hasn't given me her actual email address and she seems pretty overloaded with work. A couple other people from deviantArt said they would help. The only response I get is "It's really good. I wouldn't change a thing." I know I don't take constructive criticism well, but I was thinking at least someone would say something about grammar or anything. There's no way this book is that good that nothing can be changed. Even if there is no grammar errors, I'd like some kind of specific feedback,. like what they liked, what they didn't like. One person said that they were able to connect with the main character and was able to feel what she felt. That's it. I know I'm asking for a lot, but I just want someone to help me through this process. I understand that people are busy but those that volunteer, or even ask if they can help, I need something more than a 'good job'.

Ok. Done ranting. I think. For now. I should just go play some video games. I made meat and potatoes for lunch. It was delicious but now I feel sluggish. Yeah, definitely video game time.