Up and Down

Up then Down then Up then Down again. That's how I've been. Sunday I messed up and cut. 5 Small lines. No one but one friend in Michigan knows. Well and you guys. Though I'm not sure how many people actually read this. Not sure anyone really cares. But whatever. I've got a super migraine right now. I've been feeling like vomiting since I ate dinner. Luckily I don't have class tomorrow. But I'm probably going to go to Jacksonville to get stuff situated and get some pictures done. Unless I'm still feeling like crap, then I'm just going to sleep all day. I can't seem to take my meds. I feel like the suicidal thoughts have increased since I started the meds. I'm not really acting on them but I'm thinking about how to do it more. Which is kind of freaky. But whatever. I'm going to take my xanax and hope to get some sleep.