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Today was ok. I woke up around 10 something. I got somewhere around 7 hours of sleep. When Zach got home he didn't want to go out to the pawn shops so he watched tv while I did stuff online. I tried catching up on my surveys but I've got a killer headache. I really wanted to get out and just go window shopping but I don't want to feel like I'm forcing him to do what I want to do. But then I feel upset because I feel ignored. Well after a while I checked my facebook. My cousin posted a picture of my dad wearing frilly underwear over his pants. It makes me realize how much I miss the way things were when I was little. I miss hanging out with my family members. I miss actually talking to my family and knowing what's going on with them. Evidently a couple of them are going to  be on The Price Is Right. I only know this because I read their facebook statuses. So now I'm in a bummed out mood because I realize that I'm never going to have that with my biological family. They've pretty much forgotten my existence now that I live in Alabama. I just wish things were different. I want to know what it's like to have a family that actually sticks together. I haven't talked to my mom in forever and the last time she bothered to say hi (which was on facebook chat) was to see if a status that I wrote (saying I was sick of trying) was about her. She didn't ask how I was, she didn't care. I wish they would change or I could just forget them.