Update

Not sure what to say. I'm in a melancholy kind of mood. I got a couple surveys done for my survey websites. I'm hoping to start making some good money soon. My father-in-law is still jobless. We're thinking of looking into buying a car over in Jacksonville. It's like a 2002 or something and it's only $1000.00 I hope we get it because then I can start looking for a job again. I can't look for a job when I know I don't have a car to get to work in. There's only 23 days until my birthday. I'm not really looking forward to it. In fact, I'm actually dreading it. I haven't heard from my parents in a while. My mom answered my email finally but didn't say anything other than she couldn't help me. I haven't heard from my dad in 17 days. I'm learning how to pretend that I'm happy when I'm not and that I'm feeling better when I feel like throwing up. I'm just getting sick of my father-in-law worrying too much about me. Since he lost his job, he's been focusing on me. He doesn't worry about taking care of himself or trying to find a job. He fixates on me. He constantly asks if I'm ok and when I say that I don't feel the best, he pesters me for hours trying to figure out every little detail. Sometimes I just have a bad day. Sometimes I just get sick. Let me be. So now I've just learned to lie better. My diet still isn't working. :-(  Not sure what to do now. I'm trying to work on my photography and writing more but I don't seem to be making any progress. Oh well. Time to go find something to eat. I feel starved.