Restarting

Ok so I've failed horribly when it came to my diet. I had family over this weekend and it's hard to explain to the kids why I'm not eating when I'm telling them to eat. So I'm going to try a couple mini fasts. When I say fasts, I mean no actual food but occasionally I'll have an Ensure to keep me going. I'm still at around 157lbs. I hit 155 the other day but it bounced back up. I've gone 12 hours without anything to eat. I'm going to tell my father-in-law that I ate while he was at the store and that I'll grab something when I get home from my night class that way he won't notice that I'm not eating. I just don't want to have to explain to him that it's the only way I can lose weight. He wouldn't understand and he'd probably get overprotective and sit and watch me eat, which would make me want to eat even less. So, only 7 days until my b-day. I'm kind of nervous. I don't know why but I'm just not ready for it. I don't think I've ever dreaded a birthday as much as I'm dreading this one. Ick. Anyways, I'm off to finish my math homework before class tonight.