Sad

So I skipped my English class tonight because I'm not feeling that well and I don't have my paper done. I've been playing WoW instead of being productive. All of a sudden a friend (We'll call him Don) logged on. He's been gone for 3 months. I got really worried about him when he wasn't logging on. I was going to email him but I didn't want to seem like a stalker or anything. Well we talked for a couple minutes and he told me that he was quitting the game for good. He said he wasted 2 years on it and figured it was time to stop. He said something about not making any real friends on there anyways. It made me sad. He was one of those people that me and my husband would have loved to hang out with outside of the game. He told me to keep in touch via email and that he would try too. Now I'm really sad. I don't think he meant the friend comment personally but it kind of hurt. I tried being there for him. I loved talking to him. He knew how to cheer me up when I was having an off day and he said that I cheered him up. And of course, me being the over dramatic person that I am, started thinking about my "real friends". I don't really keep in touch with anyone anymore. I got back in touch with some of the girls back home because of a friend's wedding. Others that I've tried to keep in touch with won't return my messages or texts. Am I really that easy to just give up on? Am I really worth that little as a friend that they don't want to put forth the effort to keep in touch? Some people that I thought would never give up on me, won't even talk to me anymore. One of the guy friends that I really cared about didn't even bother to tell me that he was engaged. Maybe it was because the fiance doesn't like me. I don't know. It just hurts. Now I'm digging myself deeper and deeper into my self pity hole. I've been depressed lately and this isn't really helping me any. I just wish someone would fight to stay friends with me and put forth the effort. I've gone up to Michigan 2-3 times now to visit people but no one has even tried to come see me. I understand that I have more means but people aren't even attempting to make plans. They just say "oh yeah. We'll totally come visit." I call BULL#^&*! It isn't going to happen. I just want people to be honest. If you don't want to come visit, don't give me false hope. Just say you don't want to come visit. We'll stop being friends and I can stop trying to keep a dead relationship alive. . . . . Sorry. I needed to rant. Now I'm going to listen to sad music, cry, and write.