Doing a little better

I'm doing a little better today. Yesterday I had a bit of a emotional break at the earlier part of the day. Here's what I posted in a support group forum that I'm part of.

Trigger? Hey all, sorry I haven't been so active. A lot has been going on. My husband and I are back to playing WoW. It keeps my mind occupied most of the time. I'm back on Xanax and Zoloft. I'm also on Maximum D3. They said my vitamin D levels were really low when I went to the doc. I've been taking my meds and my moods have somewhat stabled out. The problem is, I'm not feeling much of anything. Like, I can get happy but then I'll kind of flat line and just feel nothing. I haven't cried since I started these meds. That's not normal. I've felt like crying. Things have made me a little sad. But the tears won't come. I'm glad that I haven't gotten angry though. But I kind of got used to being able to be sad. Now I just feel like I'm existing. Not really going anywhere. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I haven't been able to write lately and I can't find the energy to work on my photography. I'm losing inspiration. Everything is going grey. There are no bright colors anymore. At least without the Zoloft there were intense colors. Deep blues, Blazing reds, Shining yellows. Now it's only grey. Sorry for the rambling. I'm not even sure what I mean.

A couple people offered words of support but I didn't get much of a response. I'm still not feeling much right now. My father in law turned his phone off earlier so I had to sit outside for about 20 minutes waiting for him to pick me up. Somehow I don't really care. I'm not mad that he neglected to turn his phone on. I'm not sad that I was forgotten and left alone. I just don't care. It worries me slightly. I just don't know what to do. I got my new computer so I'm going to go play some wow before I have to go to Spanish class.